Priorities

I have separation anxiety. Every time I go anywhere without my whole family, I worry about that being the last time I see them, or they see me. Even when I leave from visiting family, I worry about it.

Then I read about a family, Roscommon Acres, much like my own, trying to get through the death of their almost two year old and it kills me, because that could happen to us. I read about Raising Olives talk about her mother choosing what to do with the 6 months she has left to live after finding out she has cancer. She makes the point, "When you are faced with death your priorities are much more clear than during the daily grind of life."

When it comes down to it, aren't we all faced with death every day? The scriptures say we are in a state of probation. We are in a testing period and at the end of that period, we die. Shouldn't I be living my life with the priorities that stand out when faced with death?

One thing I have notice in reading Roscommon Achres is she rarely ever blogs about anything other than her children since the accident happened. It's like she's trying to get everything written down about them so she doesn't forget.

Looking back at my own blog, it's not the political views I find interesting to read, it's the stories of my children and family, the funny things they have done that, even just a few months later, I have forgotten. How often have I had that moment with one of my children and thought, "I'm taking a picture in my mind of this moment. I never want to forget it," but even just a few hours later I can't remember what that moment was.

I've been thinking about this a lot the last few month. My life, my family's life, has some changes to be made. I'm just still trying to discern what all those changes are.